A Memoir About Integration and Healing

I originally began writing about my journey of healing while I was doing my own integration. I believed my book was for the purpose of sharing with the world how remarkable Spirit is, and that no matter what kind of brutality a person has experienced they can be healed from the guidance of their own higher consciousness.

 

In my book I call higher consciousness by many names; Soul, Kuan Yin, and the angel. Today I call it my Divine Essence. What I discovered many years later was that first and foremost, I wrote this book for me. It was how I began to melt the dissociation that kept me unaware of what I had really endured. To survive, I had to dissociate so completely that distinct personalities were created to keep the body alive and the mind sane. Thus, each experience was wrapped in dissociative energy, blocking the truth from being known.

 

At times as you read my story, you may not believe it. You might be resistant to knowing and accepting that kind of evil exists on our planet. I know, because I felt that way myself. I wanted so badly to believe this world was safe. I discovered that real safely only comes from within oneself. That is largely what my journey is about. The book contains minimal memory content because I wanted it to be about the miracles one can create through turning inward and opening to their own brilliant guidance however it presents itself. For me that came through the guise of many different vehicles. I learned that Spirit is not limited in how it works. Yeshua, Kuan Yin, my Divine Essence and many other beings of light have stepped in to help me over the years. I was able to integrate because one woman gave me over twenty years of her compassion and focus, guiding me to discover that the love she showed me existed within me as well. Breath by breath she patiently led me to discover the brilliance of who I am. This, combined with my passion to face the truth of what I lived is what set me free.

 

Today I love myself unconditionally. I do not regret my past. That in itself is a miracle. I continue to heal, transmuting the old energy of trauma that still exists in my body. Through breath, my patience and wisdom, I am raising my body`s frequency so that I radiate joy, strength and life continuously.